Rundown of My O’Ten

As I count the hours near the end of 2010, I’ve decided to run through my blessings and activities this past year. Since all I can do right now (alone and sick on New Year’s Eve) is to stay home and get well, I thought of writing down the memorable things that happened to me including the significant people who inspired me in O’ten, and here they are:

JANUARY

I pretty much enjoy the company of different friends. This month, I got a chance to meet with friends whom I’ve known online for years; was able to go to Ecopark for the first time with my Buritos Family to celebrate two of our loving college friends’ 26^th birthday; had my godson visit me in my apartment; and was able to attend my earlier Pod Gathering in Torio’s Grill – where I was chosen as the Best CSAT Awardee for 2009.

FEBRUARY

This love month didn’t go well as I thought it would have, since this is also my birthday month. My presence wasn’t there when I was supposed to be a Godmother to one of our college friend’s daughter; my boyfriend back then didn’t spend the Valentine’s Day with me for some lame reason; I was broke on my birthday week when I filed for a VL (vacation leave); and I broke someone’s heart without me knowing he has feelings for me. If I remember it right, the only good thing that happened to me was when instead of having a date on Valentine’s Day, I ended up celebrating the day with my favorite godson, his mom and his mom’s mom. They’re a family to me, so I was glad to go back to Ecopark with them, just relaxed and watch the kid enjoy himself.

MARCH

Another of those so-so months. This was when I found out that my ex was lying to me all along (he even lied about his birth date ‘til I saw the prompt on facebook and that he’s about to leave the country sooner than I expected). He didn’t even have the guts to say goodbye, so I broke up with him. He tried to talk me out of it and visit me in my place, but it’s too late. I don’t have feelings for him anymore. Liars don’t stay long in my memory. So there. I can’t remember anything really good that happened to me this month.

APRIL

If not for a special friend’s wedding, I wouldn’t be able to travel and see the beautiful place of Marinduque, her sweet husband and the beautiful friends of the bride. This was by far, I can say the best vacation I had this 2010. We stayed there for 5days. After which, was a Part 2 getaway to Anawangin, Zambales. Awww…beaches, beaches, beaches. J I love this month!

MAY

This was the month I guess when I started searching for acting workshops or open auditions so I can go back and hone my craft and pursue what I’ve always wanted to do – Act. This was when I attended a workshop guide to beginners in film making, and finally met one of the significant persons who inspired me to pursue my dream – Mr. JP Carpio. I also promised to make myself “busy” from this month on, to let go of the bad vibes. J

JUNE

This month was one of the unforgettable. Aside from relatives and friends who celebrated their birthdays and so with Father’s Day, this was the beginning of my journey towards reaching my goal. I began attending UFO Pintigan Acting Workshop, I was able to audition for CCP’s Tanghalang Pilipino Actor’s Company and auditioned for UP Diliman’s Information for Foreigners.

JULY

I was still busy attending the workshop (under Soliman Cruz and Michael Ian Lomongo) then office work right after. I graduated from the acting workshop at the end of the month, performed in our recital and still on the same day, met another significant person (a great artist - director/actor/singer/dancer/choreographer/writer/composer, all rolled into one – Mr. Njel de Mesa), I even sang with him! J

This was also the month when I found out I passed the audition in UP and will be part of yet again another amazing production under an internationally renowned director Anton Juan. Another unforgettable and happiest month I had this year. J

AUGUST

We had pictorials this month for the show Information for Foreigners; I learned more routes in and out of UP campus than I knew back in college; I learned that no matter how tired and long the hours are for rehearsals, as long as you love what you’re doing, you’ll just be happy and fine.

SEPTEMBER

Oh, dear September. I love you because: of the 7-days show of Information for Foreigners, with very good feedback from the press, guests and audience; because you introduced me to a bunch of talented, amazing and loving people in my IFF family; because we were complete (brothers, sisters and nephews) in celebrating Dad’s birthday; because we (college friends) got together again for Tei’s birthday at Liza’s house; and I still managed to perform and make good scores at work. J

OCTOBER

I was referred for another audition. Though I didn’t make it on the scheduled date, I was glad to be given a second chance for another day. I thought of it as another opportunity given by God, because he knows what my heart longs for. Though I didn’t get the part, I’m still happy for another experience. I even met a pretty girl on that same day, who told me it was her very first time to audition in her entire life and doesn’t have any idea how she’ll make it through. Since it has always been a pleasure for me to share what I learned, I gave her some tips and a few push for her not to back-out and just move on. In the end, I know she made it because the sponsor/judge liked her very much. J So happy for her!

This was also one of my favorite months because opportunities just kept on coming. After the above audition, I received an email in the office that there will be an opening for the Miss Saigon musical play as a Yearend performance and it will be a competition. At first, I told myself that this time, I want to know what it feels like to help backstage and just accompany my team mate who so wanted to be part of the production. Besides, I’m not a good singer or dancer. But friends and some officemates convinced me to join and try out. So there, I made it to the cut and was excited to know the rest of the cast. J

Before the end of this awesome month, I was interviewed for research and became friends with Tia and Didi (both from Indonesia); I met with a high school friend and her Dad, and then wrapped up the month by meeting my co-acting workshoppers from UFO Pintigan Acting Workshop to celebrate a beloved Australian friend (Emma)’s despedida in Centerstage. We had a lot of fun and sang our hearts out in the videoke that night! J I miss these girls.

NOVEMBER

I met up with two new online friends this month; attended another college friend’s bridal shower and enjoyed their company as we dress up for a Masquerade theme and did some pictorials; went out with Mommy, Tito & Katkat and bought or invested on some appliances for myself. Guess my 13^th month salary didn’t go to waste this year. Talk about wise spending. Oh, and this was when I had my taste of first time, when I auditioned for an Indie-film J

DECEMBER

I love you December, because: I met a bunch of crazy people in my Saigon Family and learned to love and be inspired by them. You gave me an opportunity to share and teach what I learned on previous workshops I’ve attended. I was able to perform on stage again after so many years. You made me perform in front of my superiors and officemates. You made me enjoy the company’s Yearend Party so bad, that despite some of my stuff were stolen backstage by God-knows-who, I still felt accomplished and fulfilled. And you made our family and relatives closer than ever.

oOo

Despite of my health condition this past year, I was still blessed with great people and great experiences that I’ll surely treasure for the rest of my life. THANK YOU 2010, and THANK YOU for everyone who became a part of my life and made me part of yours. You made my year worthwhile :)

Have a great 2011! Carpé Diem! ^_^

RFS MISS SAIGON.(10-15mins version) complete copy from Yuri

‎"ONSTAGE" featuring RFS' version of MISS SAIGON

BEST PERFORMANCE OF THE YEAR
Champion of the 1st Inter-LOB Contest of JPMC

Location: SMX Convention Center - Dec 12, 2010

A Foreign Stranger

Hi guys! It's been quite a while since I wrote something about dates/guys/relationships. And I got excited to post this after reading the article 10 Quickest Ways To Turn A Guy Off.

Not that what you're going to read below has anything to do with the article, it's just that after reading it, it made me remember the recent activity I had over the last week.

Well, let's just say I finally went back to dating or shall I say, meet-ups after a couple of months with a new guy. And it's something that I consider "first-of-a-kind". Why? Because I've never met with a foreigner... until that day came. To be honest, I never thought I'd be interested in one. But then, we can't stop fate. It'll sooner or later introduce you to something or someone new. Events that may trigger happiness or such excitement in your life; or people who may 'somewhat' bring fulfillment to your wishes and daydreams.

The plan was simple. Breakfast and some chitchats. It was fun. It was different from the other dates of course, because I just have to follow EOP (English Only Policy - like if I am speaking with a customer on the phone) for those hours we were together. But the only difference was, I talk, and he's there in front me, and you can see his facial expressions, reactions and you can hear him laugh to the things I say and of the movements I make. It was only then that I realized, he made me feel comfortable around him and of myself. Some people may think I could've had my nose bleeding because of that EOP thing, but much to my surprise, I felt good, I was happy - and - hyper (like I haven't had enough sleep the night before, but my energy is just so high I can't help it). Also, I love the fact that we strolled around a beautiful area and we both love nature and simple things that life has to offer; rather than stay in a four-cornered-dim-lighted room for three hours.

It was also different, and it saddened me because we just have to cut it short. He haven't had enough sleep like I did, since he just got to Manila that evening before we met the next day. I just saw it in his eyes - tired and needs some more rest. Still being a perfect gentleman, he walked me through my way out - as I'm not familiar with the place, then he finally offered a hug before we parted ways. It was indeed a sweet, simple and brief meet up with once a "foreign stranger", and who I can now call, a sweet friend.

Looking forward to see you again - wishing a plane drops you off here one more time :)

Jamie.

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Blessed and Happy Sunday

When I knew I'd have to take a Saturday shift, I immediately thought of what to do right after so I could maximize the remaining hours of the day. Obviously, I won't be having the full weekend, so I might as well think of better things to do aside from eat, sleep and log online. So I told myself that right after my shift, why don't I go and visit the person I always talk to, everyday, and everywhere I am; and finally listen to what He wants to tell me all this time?

So, since last night was my first Saturday, today was my first fully blessed Sunday, and I'm happy. Why? Read on:

1. I went to Church and heard the early Mass. It's been months since I did.

2. I got inspired with old and young couples hearing Mass together while holding hands

3. I was glad to know that people still make effort to dress properly inside the Church

4. I learned more from today's Gospel - Giving and saying THANK YOU to all God's blessings ("Pasasalamat"). We tend to just ask and demand from Him. We hardly say thank you and praise, once we get what we want

and

5. I learned that the reason why we are not happy with our lives is because we keep searching on things/people, that/whom we don't have or will never have, instead of just be contented with those of which and who are already there.

At the end of the day, I realized that there's no such thing as "too late", when it comes to talking and listening to Him. What's important is for us not to forget that there's only One person we can trust. And yup, that's the Man who gave his life for us and died on the cross.

Enjoy your Family Day, guys! =)

**Oh, didn't I say I'm happy? I am. Nadagdagan pa when I found out that one of my dear friends, just got promoted! Woohoo! Congrats, Denisse!!! Muwah, muwah! God is good!!!**

And look, what day is it today?

10.10.10

^_^

IFF on GMAnews.tv

We thank you, CARMELA G. LAPEÑA for this article.

Don't miss the chance to see this show. Still running from tonight, September 23 until September 26 '10 at UP Diliman CAL New Bldg, promptly opens by 630pm. Wear comfortable clothes and shoes!

News Release: UP DECL celebrates centenary with a play directed by Anton Juan

17 September 2010, Quezon City – The Department of English and Comparative Literature, College of Arts and Letters of the University of the Philippines-Diliman marks its centenary with a play adapted from Griselda Gambaro’s Information for Foreigners as part of its ongoing celebration. The cast members created collaborative devices in mounting a carnivalesque portrayal of social injustice.

The foreigners in the play are the audience members who will be guided to scenes that show the parallel histories of Argentina (Gambaro’s country) and the Philippines. Under the direction of Anton Juan Jr., the two-hour play will be staged within the CAL (new) Building from September 20 to 26, 2010 at 7:00 p.m.

The DECL, founded in 1910 two years after the university was established, is the second largest department at the UP. The Commission on Higher Education declared it a Center of Excellence in Literature and in the English Language for demonstrating the highest degree or level of standards in the areas of instruction, research, and extension.

Renowned and multi-awarded Juan was a professor in the Department of Speech Communication and Theater Arts and associate professor for Drama at the Creative Writing Center at the CAL. He is currently a full professor and theatre director at the University of Notre Dame du Lac in Indiana, USA.

The production is borne from a one-and-a-half month workshop led by Juan and his artistic team comprised of Patrick Valera, assistant director; Jethro Joaquin, sound designer; Ohm David, technical director; Meliton Roxas, lights designer; Winter David, video designer; Lhenvil Paneda, costume designer; John Paul Gaerlan, props designer; Karen Gaerlan, production manager; Jojo Landrito, assistant technical director; Donna Dacuno, stage manager; Karla Vizcarra, assistant stage manager; Marcus Guasque, Lehner Mendoza, Krystel Dionisio as Boardmen and; Diana Mon Directo, Jennelyn Cabauatan and Jodee M. Reyes, staff members.

Workshop participants and cast members are Adrian Kevin C. Agonoy, Maryjane Alejo, Ron Aries A. Billete, Ara Carmela Bonilla, Janellyn Briones, Jennelyn Cabauatan, Christian M. Dagsil, Rico del Rosario, Renz Danielle Dugenia, Emma Fisher, Chona Fernando, Carlo P. Garcia, Karen Gaerlan, Ekis Gimenez, Benedick Hernandez, Nestor Benny P. Leyson, Michael Ian Lomongo, Michael Magallona, Jeena Rani Marquez, Olive Nieto, Paul Jake A. Paule, Carlo P. Pulido, Jodee M. Reyes, Opaline Rae B. Santos, Betty Uy-Regala, and Jaime J. Yambao with the special participation of guest actor, Peter Serrano.

Ticket is at P250. For ticket inquiries, kindly contact Karen Gaerlan at (0927) 554-1854.

—ooOoo—

For more information or to arrange for interviews, please contact Betty Uy-Regala at (0906) 260-4175.

Press Release of Griselda Gambaro's INFORMATION FOR FOREIGNERS, directed by Anton Juan Jr.

Two more days left, and the show will begin. But first, take a peek on what you, as part of the audience will do, and what you will expect, as the play runs from September 20 to September 26, 2010.



Here are links of media pickups for news release
http://www.philstar.com/Article.aspx?articleId=613422&publicationSubCategoryId=79

http://www.ncca.gov.ph/about-ncca/announcements/announcement.php?i=3937

http://panitikan.com.ph/newsarchive/monthly/september2010.htm#mayday


The following links will give you more idea of what the show is about:
http://sites.google.com/site/desapphilippines/
http://www.desaparecidos.org/phil/eng.html

Here's a photo gallery of Desaparecidos: http://www.karapatan.org/gallery/desaparecidos

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Dear Foreigner,

As a stranger to this country, you are invited to:

INFORMATION for FOREIGNERS

a memorable tour showcasing the fascinating history of this nation.

Come and hear our stories! Learn about our virtues! Meet our great heroes! See the beautiful, the glamorous and the prosperous. We shall take you to a journey that you, dear stranger to this country, will (hopefully once and for all) truly remember!

WHERE: CAL New Building, U.P. Diliman (behind the Faculty Center)

WHEN: Limited tour from SEPT. 20 - 26, 2010

TIME: Meets promptly at 6:30 PM

REMINDERS:

1. Please wear comfortable clothes.

2. Bring a fan (pamaypay) and drinking water.

3. For mature strangers only.

4. Standing room only.

5. If you're bringing a friend, hold on to them - TIGHT. We don't want anybody missing!

For reservations, please contact Karen at 0917 554 18 54.

Come if you're dying to know about this country! Come! We'll be expecting you.

Sincerely,

Your Guide

Brought to you by Department of English & Comparative Literature, U.P. Diliman

Adapted from the Griselda Gambaro's Information for Foreigners

Devise & Project Mentorship - Anton Juan, Jr.

Dramaturgy & Asst. Direction - Pat Valera

Sound Design - Jethro Joaquin

Lights Design - Meliton Roxas

Costume Design - Lhenvil Pineda

Video Design - Winter David

Technical Direction - Ohm David

Featuring:

Michael Ian Lomongo, Olive Nieto, Michael Magallona, Mary jane Alejo, Carlo Garcia, Karen Gaerlan, Jeena Marquez, Opaline Santos, Pat Valera & Peter Serrano.

Griselda Gambaro's Information For Foreigners

For its CENTENNIAL, the Department of English and Comparative Literature of the University of the Philippines, Diliman is staging...

Griselda Gambaro's
INFORMATION FOR FOREIGNERS
under the Direction of Anton Juan Jr.

Asst. Direction & Dramaturgy - Pat Valera
Sound Design - Jethro Joaquin
Technical Direction - Ohm David
Lights Design - Meliton Roxas
Costume Design - Lhenvil Paneda


Playdates: September 20-26 '10, 7pm at College of Arts and Letters Building.

Watch and see a carnival of mystery and the macabre.
Ticket is @ Php250.00
For U.P. students, it's a hundred and sixty (P160)

For ticket inquiries, text Karen @ 0927.554.1854

Feel free to share with friends! See you there!

U.P. Night Ride

Was surrounded by Lovers
On this cold, dark night

Hands going all over their partner's body

One shoots a kiss
Another a sweet smile

I felt something strange
Sent shivers down my spine

Alienated
On this Jeepney ride

Just Can't Hide It (Savoring the First Time)

I woke up yesterday at the sound of a text message.

Feeling groggy and jaded, I walked through the window to get my phone and check who it was. Thinking that it was just a message from a crazy guy who won't have the decency to introduce himself and just bug me everyday, I was ready to immediately delete the message and wouldn't want to bother reading whatever he said. But when I saw the word, "CONGRATULATIONS!" I literally paused (this time, thinking it was one of those spam text messages of me winning a lottery or something, which I didn't even joined for). But as I run through the text, it was a message from the Production Manager of a theater play I auditioned last Saturday (July 24). It was then that I remembered I did something that weekend. Something that I almost forgot about, 'til this message came.

"CONGRATULATIONS! We are happy to inform you that you passed the audition as a workshop participant for Information for Foreigners. At this point we would like to inform you that instead of talent fees, you shall receive an allowance at the end of the production, THE AMOUNT OF WHICH IS YET TO BE DETERMINED. We hope that this monumental experience with Dr. Anton Juan shall transform you into a better actor and citizen. If these terms are acceptable, please attend the character tabling tom. At 6 to 9pm at CAL 311, U.P. Diliman. Kindly confirm attendance. Thank you. - Karen Gaerlan, Production Manager"

I was so sleepy and "bangag" that evening. I was even thinking of backing out of the audition and just go home to sleep 'coz I can't think of a piece that I can do for a monologue. I was not prepared at that time. We were just made aware of the audition, like 2 or 3 hours before. But then again, at the back of my mind, someone's shouting: "Carpe Diem(seize the day), Jha! Carpe Diem(seize the day)!!!"

So there I was with my co-acting workshoppers and mentor (we all auditioned) in a cab, them writing or thinking of their audition pieces - and me, trying hard not to fall asleep and think of my own lines. But there was nothing. Blank. Nada. Zero. Nothing came to mind. So I just said, "bahala na(come what may)".

Then there I was. In front of Dr. Anton Juan. When asked if I have prepared a monologue - I didn't lie - I said, yes. Well, not that prepared really, but more of like, I do have something to present - an impromptu piece that is. Whatever comes out of my mouth, whatever it is that I can think of, at that very moment. :) So yeah, I can say, I have a prepared monologue. Hehe.

Of course, it's different if it is a requirement to present a piece from a published playwright (like what was asked of us for CCP Tanghalang Pilipino Actors Company audition last June 30). Good thing that this second audition I went to, didn't really require much, so I just did my own.

Pardon me, but even though this is not the first time I auditioned for a theatrical play, this is the first time after 7 years (last was in 2003 for FEU Theater Guild's, "The King and I"), that I auditioned - and passed. :) I will still keep my word when I said, that I won't stop 'til I get and do what I have always wanted to do - Act.

So Thank you, Lord for this great blessing and for all the people who have prayed with me and supported me all this time. For they know what really makes me happy and they believed in me when I say, I can do it. :)

Keep This Love Alive

Tom Scott And David Pack

Girl we've been through
Some hard times before
Still we've made it through the years.

You know it's true
Whatever lies in store.
We've faced troubled times
But we won't look behind

Because girl,
When I think about our love and what it means
I know that you are the answer
I keep coming back to you
Heal me one more time.
I keep coming back to you
You're the reason why, the reason I,
I've got to keep this love alive,
Gotta keep this love alive
Gotta keep this love alive, forever.

I don't know why
I made it so long
Helpless to control my fears
I turn to you
It's so hard, I know
No matter how long I go
You will answer my call.

Because, girl
When I think about our love and what it means
I know that you are the answer.
I keep coming back to you
Heal me one more time.
I keep coming back to you
You're the reason why, the reason I,
I've got to keep this love alive
Gotta keep this love alive
I've got to try [keep this love alive]

We're not weary
Need you near me
I keep coming home to you.

Girl, when I think about love and what it means
I know that you are the answer.
I keep coming back to you
Heal me one more time.
I'm coming back to you
You're the reason why, the reason I
I've got to keep this love alive,
Gotta keep this love alive,
Keep this love alive
Gotta keep this love alive
Forever and ever
Keep this love alive.

The Slow 'Mo

Was in the mood to do my laundry
At a very early morning - 1am
Gathered my socks and undergarments
And soaked 'em with fabric conditioner for a final swim

Time to hang them up
And let the morning breeze kiss them
As I get my last pair of socks to join the crew,
I slipped on the floor, not as quick as I imagined

But like a scene edited for a show,
In a funny slow 'mo.

Pintigan Acting Workshop Journal - Actual Day 4

July 10 2010

Pffttt... I came in a couple of minutes before the Physical Exercises begun. My eyes that day were really swollen, and I dunno why. I managed to get an hour of sleep (errr...nap that is) in our sleeping quarters after my shift, but when I remembered that I have to meet up with Dad and treat him for lunch, I immediately jumped out of bed bumping my forehead on the double-deck railing (stupid me. Hehe). But still, that doesn't explain why I can't stop the rapid blinking of my eyes whenever I attempt to look and focus on a certain object. I began to wonder what's wrong.

Anyway, so there we were, started the day with the exercises (hoping that time, I can at least do most of them, after practicing at home - but still failed). Oh, well - more practice. After the break though, we were gathered by Mr. Michael Ian Lomongo (who, as I mentioned on my previous post, is our new mentor), and briefed us on what will be the changes on our remaining two or three scheduled classes.

JUST STAND
He then asked each of us, one by one, to stand in front of the class... and do nothing. Just stand...for one minute, while the rest of the class observe the one standing. Alright, so I thought it was easy. Hell no. Just a few seconds of me trying to stare on an empty whiteboard, I felt my eyes scanning the rest of the room. Oh, I almost forgot. He did mention that we also need to observe what was happening around. And observe what's going on in our body.

Funny thing was, after that few seconds of me trying not to think of anything, as the Dreamy Idealist as I am, my imagination started to fly and think of crazy things. My sudden dream of bumping into a gorgeous guy I barely knew in the middle of a footbridge while crossing the road, thinking he may be The One, which is real crazy; and thinking again of how stupid it was for me to suddenly jolt out of bed early that morning to see my Dad, causing a slight bruise on my forehead which hurts. Those things made me smile (which I bet they saw, when I was standing in front of them). Silly imaginations, followed by some kinky ones, also didn't stop me from smiling that day. I dunno what got into me, though. Haha. Well, I managed not to move, yes, I just stood up...but I can't stop smiling. :D

The evaluation of that exercise followed. Ian said that the purpose of that is for him to know how we felt standing in front of an audience - or just even in front of someone you know, who stares at you. Also, he wants us to observe, how our body reacts on such occasion. Almost all of us felt nervous, I did too. And that nervousness was the reason why, no one of us had the courage to look at the audience.

I did felt nervous - but not the kind of nervousness that I feel on a certain performance on stage. For me, it was just a typical "shyness" in front of everybody. My imaginations overflowed, that it got me unaware of the time passing by while standing. Maybe it was because I got used to standing up after I eat, and think of things while I let my food digest itself in my stomach(hehe); compared to, if I am supposed to be in a character of someone or something that needs to be always standing and that the audience need to see. That's different. If I know that I need to portray such character, I'll be too mindful of the instructions given to me. Just stand and do nothing. But in that exercise, I was not in character. I was myself. So in short, I did not follow the instructions. I did stood up, but my eyes were moving everywhere and my lips twitched every time I want to smile. :)


JUST STAND, PART 2
We did that exercise again. This time, for two minutes. We'll stand for two minutes - but was instructed to look at the audience, and if we felt a reaction in our body, we needed to let that reaction spread over the rest of our body parts. I said, okay (saying to myself, "follow the instructions this time, Jha. Just stand, if you feel anything, let that feeling show on the rest of your body parts").

I did it wrong again. Though, Ian said that there's actually no right or wrong on the said exercise, I still felt what I did was wrong. 'Coz despite of me literally bursting in laughter (after I saw one of my classmates, yawn and scratch herself in a fast manner like that of a child whose so impatient to get his milk from her mom), I still felt my knees getting stiff to the fact that I can't move it freely as I laugh. That's where my nervousness showed - which our mentor saw when I was standing there.

I thought that by choosing which among my feelings has the higher percentage of being shown on my body, is what I needed to show my audience, I could cover my nervousness. That's why I decided to let my upper torso show them how that simple thing got me teary-eyed while laughing. I thought that I could cover my knees shaking through that act. But it didn't. So for me, for following instructions, I'm on strike two. :)


THE TOUCH, REACT, AND GO
For the next exercise, Ian told us to choose a partner and decide whose going to be A and B. Then he instructed for all A's to lie down on the floor and close their eyes. The task of all B's were to touch their partner in any part of the body, let them react, then let go. Little by little, all B's will be given instructions on what to do next. Then exchange tasks - all A's will be the ones who'll touch, then all B's will be the ones who'll react (but this time, both are standing up).

I guess the purpose of this exercise is to see, feel and observe how fast we react on a certain touch or thing that will come across our bodies. In theater, maybe its to check how quick we think or deliver an ad lib if our partner forgets his line. It's on how one could get through a scene without being so struck with nervousness like you don't know what to do. It's on how an actor shows how versatile he is to react on certain unavoidable situations during a performance.

THE TUNNEL

The workshop ended with another case exercise, wherein we were asked to stand up, walk slowly and just focus on one spot in front of us - imagining there's a bright tunnel ahead, and that we're about to get out of a dark space (or so, that's how I imagined it to be). We were asked to not let go of that spot and follow the instructions given by our mentor, as we walk towards it - that no matter what happens, whatever it is he says we do, we're still looking at that spot, the tunnel.

Slowly as we walked, our mentor told us to imagine that, "there's a rose coming out of our left eye, then later, a rose is coming out of our hands, our back, our hips, which grows bigger and bigger...". I thought I have to show and react while there's something growing on me. Yes, we have to, but the instruction is NOT TO LET GO OF THE SPOT WHATEVER HAPPENS. I failed again. Tsk, tsk. Strike three. Hehe :)


We were asked to do it again. Correctly. Our mentor noticed my reaction as a beautiful rose grows on each part of my body. He asked, "Jha, what's a rose for you?" and I said, "It's full of thorns. I know it's supposed to be beautiful, but for me, they're just full of thorns". Now he understood why I reacted so differently from my classmates, who, just by hearing the type of flower, smiles and their faces brighten up. While I feel hurt and disappointed that there's something that grows on me, making my walk towards that end, so slow and complicated.

Well, it's not that I don't like that flower, though. In fact, I like anything red. But it's just that, I'd prefer a very beautiful, red Tulip, than that of a rose in which once it reaches my hands, I'll be so bothered thinking where to hold it, so it won't hurt me; than just hold a tulip right away and let me fondle on its beauty. :)


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At the end of the day, we were given an assignment. Think of a "performance-to-die-for" and present it to class next Saturday. Something that we haven't done before, or simply put, we need to perform our dream role next week. A dream role that once we do it, we can die anytime with the fulfillment of that dream. The thought never left me for the entire week.

So there I was on a Monday morning, writing my own piece. I never danced in front of an audience - ever. Well, yeah I remember once, but I'm masked and with a costume. No one recognized me. And when I was in Grade 5 for our Village's Fiesta. But I haven't danced as an adult.

So, I thought of dancing. At the same time, there was this almost true-to-life story that I included in my script. Something that I have learned to let go, but didn't manage to forget. The thought of being taken advantage of; of wanting to escape from someone who went against your will to get his own pleasure; of wanting to get help.

My dream was to portray my own life, as I've been through a lot. I know we all do. But living my life and having the courage to portray it and show it to the whole world, makes a difference. Something that I will treasure til my last breath.

I just hope that I get to perform it the way I wanted it to be seen by the class. But anything happens, if I fail again, it won't matter. Just the thought of me having that courage and will to show what I got, makes me more than satisfied.

'Til next week! :)

Open Space: And this is why we tell the story

...and this is why I had goosebumps at this early lunch time. Read, reflect, and understand why I behave like this.

Open Space: And this is why we tell the story: "“Why are we doing this?” I surprised the participants of the recently concluded theater workshop for teachers of the Department of Educatio..."

Pintigan Acting Workshop Journal (supposed to be Day 4)

July 3 2010

This day got canceled due to an unavoidable circumstance. We were notified by Ms. Anna, a few days before this scheduled Day 4, that Sir Sol will no longer be our workshop mentor, and that Mr. Michael Ian Lomongo will take over from hereon. If this means, we'll be starting from scratch, so be it. But if we'll continue on where Sir Sol left off, just fine by me. I'm after the experience anyway - regardless of the mentor.

For me, I make sure that on every workshop or class I get into, I walk out with something–whether that was a new concept, or a new way of looking at something I’ve done hundreds of times. (excerpt from The Brian Bowers Project, "Acting is not a business! (and other tall tales)" :)

Pintigan Acting Workshop Journal Day 3

June 26 2010

I came in so freakin' tired from my night shift, due to a lack of sleep the day before. I didn't even get surprised of Ian (Mr. Michael Ian Lomongo), who was seated on one corner of the room, silently texting or reading something. I just said, "Hello po", then tried to doze off (since we were just the two 'early birds' in there) while waiting for the others.

It didn't take long before Ms. Anna Gamboa entered the room and greeted me as I walked in from the restroom looking bangag (hehe). I did try to take a nap again - but couldn't. My mind's set for the class already, wishing it starts right away to "wake up my senses".

So there, after a couple of minutes, Ian started the exercises - even if we're not complete yet. Which is a good thing, because on my previous workshops, if the director sets the time at 2pm, he WILL start at 2pm regardless if everyone's in or not. I miss that type of discipline on stage. :)

He introduced The Cat Exercise (this is the one I loved most 'coz it really made me sweat - which you can barely have if you're working in a so freakin' cold environment). I love how that exercise made me realize how strong my arms are - making sure I don't give up on carrying my weight on it, and in every move I make.

After the exercises and a short break, Sir Sol came in and started giving us a brief background of Theater as a form of Cinema (sounds a bit late to discuss on a third day, for this should have already been covered on Day 1, but it's just fine with me). He also briefed us on what will be the concept of our Showcase at the end of this workshop. Though I understood what he's trying to say, I can't help but notice (or imagine) a lot of question marks plastered on our faces as to how we will be able to put up that kind of 'show' in a span of 5 days. Given the fact that our class is composed of students and working people, I find it hard to imagine how we can all get our schedules jive into one for the sake of the rehearsals. We didn't even have a piece to study yet.

When we went down to once again check the venue of our performance on the final day, we were told of what we're supposed to do. Surprisingly enough, we were told that all we're going to use will be that empty parking lot, the little spaces in between those Greek-like Arches, and that bare floor (cement) without a support if we accidentally fall down during the performance.

I have no problem with the venue, to be honest. The first thing that concerns me, though, was the bare floor. We were told that as part of our performance, we'll be doing the 'stunts-like exercises', which we thought were just for warm-ups at the start of the day. We'll be doing those ear/head/handstands without even a single mattress to support our heads in case we stumble and fall. We're no professionals, and we don't do those stunts in every day of our lives! Sheesh...

Also, I was concerned about my classmates. This, I believe, will be a very, very great challenge for all of us. I was just left there wishing that we could be given ample time to rehearse if we'll push through with that plan.

At the end of the day, we were assigned to bring our own knee-pads and blankets(as our draft costume) and prepare our poems by the next meeting, so we can start the rehearsal.

Woah! What a day.

Pintigan Acting Workshop Journal Day 2

June 19 2010

We started our "afternoon exercises" again, around past 2pm with Mr. Michael Ian Lomongo. Did the wave, and the ear/headstand stunts once again (which, I can still barely do until now) and the forward and backward rolls, for us to carefully warm-up all the parts of our body and prepare for the next session.

Sir Sol started the class by watching us "fall" (drop on the ground) without any sound from our bones. "Just fall", he said. "If you make a sound, we'll start all over". Ugghh...I don't know why despite of our physical exercises earlier, our knees and bones still managed to crack! (Oh, make a "crack sound" that is. Hehe)

Our workshop mentor also invited some of his friends who play percussion instruments to help us "feel the beat" and "talk to each other through the beats" at the same time "focus" on just what was told for us to do (move-in-between and make a sound through our feet while following the percussion).

According to him, this session is one way of "Acting-without-words". I enjoyed it (because I once became the drummer of our school's cheering squad in elementary - haha - and since then, got fond of New Wave music and fast RnB songs, while following the beats using a spoon & fork and a tabo. Hehe). While I was still getting the hang of it, suddenly, we were asked to stop - and Sir Sol shouted and reprimanded one of my classmates to go out. The reason why, I chose not to share to give respect for my classmate.

So there. Our 2nd day ended with heavy rains, as we went down the room and checked our showcase venue (which is a parking lot).

I wonder, what's in store for us on our third Saturday...

Pintigan Acting Workshop Journal

DAY 1

June 12, 2010

With some of my co-Acting Workshoppers (From L: Harold aka Haronce, Vanessa and Vince aka Lady Gagita) See more photos here.

We started with some physical exercises - led by Mr. Michael Ian Lomongo, a member of the Neo-Angono Artists Collective and was with the Tanghalang Pilipino Actors' Company from 1999 to 2003. Oh, when I said, physical, I REALLY mean PHYSICAL (i.e. handstand, earstand, roll-overs and what have you. I now finally realized how a great amount of physical activity I've lost since I stopped working out. My body hurt like hell the moment I lied down on my bed). Haha, this is not to complain or anything. I actually was very, very glad that I now finally have the reason to exercise --- again. Haha.

Next, was when Mr. Soliman Cruz asked us to form a big circle, taught us about the word "Philosophy"; which is in simple terms mean 'ask questions'. Then proceeded in asking us our names (unfortunately, he didn't ask mine), because he started the following question on me - "why am I in that room or in that workshop'.

After all our answers were gathered, Direk Sol made us play a game of "catch that ball" which aims to test how good we are in following instructions and focusing on the subject. Funny thing though, when Sir Sol went out of the room to take a phone call, we were doing so great - practicing. But once he's back inside, we find it so hard to complete that 10counts without dropping the ball. Hahaha. After the workshop, we went straight to Araullo St. and watched, UFO Sightings: Cinema Knights.

Looking forward to another fun Saturday. :)

Of Kidney Transplants and In Search of Kidney Donors

Just got a message from my brother: "Unfortunately, it has been stated by law that no one will be allowed to donate their kidney. Kidney transplant should be within the family members only. Let's just pray na makakuha pa tayo ng ibang alternative para kay Mommy."

Is this true? Who among you guys here knows someone or something about Kidney transplants / kidney donors, or knows someone who had gone through the same thing my Mom is encountering right now? We badly need your help in letting us decide on what to do... =(

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For you, Mommy

I know you'll never get to read this, but at least I can let the whole world know what's in my heart.

Mommy, I know you've been through a lot of thinking and depression lately. Getting a news like that from your doctor, is not that easy. I just want you to realize, that no matter what happens, we - your children, will never get tired of finding out the right thing to do and the right option to choose in order to save you from this misery. We won't give up on searching for the right doctor and for your proper medication. You may not see it in all of us, that we're really concerned about you, but I'm wishing for you to hold on and just think that this is just another of those large cross, God had set forth for us to carry.

I longed for this moment, that I can get the chance to write what's been in my head and in my heart from those years that I never get to be with you. I never had a chance to laugh with you as a child would do, when she sees her crush in school or on TV. You were not there when I'm starting puberty and wished to have someone explain to me why I was bleeding (first time that I had my period), before the nuns did in school. You didn't see me cry during the times that I had my first heartbreak. You didn't see me stumble and crave for a Mother's love.

But despite all these, your absence taught me to stand on my own and grow up as a lady of substance. You taught me that distance can never be the reason for a dying love. You taught me that there will be people who will come into my life and may fill what you missed, but there will be nothing more important than a Mother's true love to her child.

Now that it's our time to give you back what you deserve, may you continue to be strong and have more faith to the Lord, that we can get through this. We're all here for you. In behalf of my brothers and sisters, I pray for your strong will and patience, that in God's time, we'll be able to figure out the right thing to do.

Happy, happy Mother's Day Mommy. We love you!

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Due to popular demand: Here are the answers to your Questions about - Anawangin, Zambales (Taglish)

Photo by Yhey This post is actually long overdue. Now that I'm receiving more and more inquiries about how to go to Anawangin Zambales, budget, travel time and so forth - in a span of like 1 to 2hours today, I decided to put all my answers in one page, instead of answering them one by one on each wall. ^_^ The answers were as far as my memory can recall. Hehe Q: How to go to Anawangin? A: Since I was with my colleagues, we came from Ayala, then went straight to Victory Liner Caloocan Bus terminal. From there, we boarded the bus going to Iba,Zambales (if there's an available bus to San Antonio, much better, because that's where you will ride a tricycle to Pundaquit Town). Anuman ang sakyan mo sa dalawa, kailangan mo lang bumaba ng San Antonio. :p From San Antonio, go inside the market (buy things/food that you think you'll need more than what you brought). At the back of the market is where you'll find the tricycles which will bring you to your second destination - Pundaquit. Photo by Arnie In Pundaquit was where we met Kuya William - our ever dearest 'bankero' from the 1st time we were there. He then led us to a cottage to rest for a while, while he prepares our banka going to ---- Anawangin. Photo by Gracey Q: How long will it take us to Anawangin from Manila? A: From wherever you will come, going to Caloocan, I have no idea. hehe. But from Ayala, I rode a cab last Saturday (April 17) after my shift going to Caloocan. It took me around 30-45mins. The bus ride from the terminal to San Antonio is 4 hours (may mga stop over na din yun. Mga 2 or 3 stop-overs kasama na yung isang 15min break para mananghalian ang driver at konduktor ng bus pati na rin ang mga gutom na pasahero). The tricycle ride from San Antonio to Pundaquit is roughly around 10-15mins. And the boat ride from Pundaquit to Anawangin is roughly 30-45mins.(sure naman na matitigil ang reklamo niyo sa tagal ng biyahe once na nakita niyo nang malapit na kayo sa Anawangin. The view is just so beautiful, that you may want to jump right away from the boat. Hehe joke lang. Pero kung may gusto gumawa, go lang :D ) Q: How much is the budget? A: It's dependont. hehe. I mean, it depends whether you guys will bring food on your own or you'll buy from the store dun (which got me surprised because the first time we were there - Jan 31-Feb 1 2009, it was an empty island, except of course sa mga may tent dun. No stores, no Henna stall, no numerous signboards of Attention, etc) But for our group, we only prepared P1,500-P2,000 each. Andun na yung pinamalengke, pinambili ng water, transpo (bus to and from, boat to and from and island hopping at iba pa na di ko na maalala pang binayaran namin). That's the cheapest budget so far na nagamit ko (of all the places I've been to), hanggang sa makauwi sa aking munting "haven". :) Q: Are we allowed to drink alcohol within Anawangin grounds? A: I think I saw a sign of No Drinking Alcohol (im not sure. Baka nananaginip lang ako nun. hehe) and no Bonfire allowed, na ganito ang pagkakasulat: Haha, san kapa? ^_^ At kesehodang may ganyang sign, wala pa ring sumunod dahil kanya-kanya na yan pag nakapuwesto na kayo sa spot na gusto niyo. Well, ilang groups lang ang nakita kong di uminom sa Anawangin. Most were drinking pagsapit ng dilim (as in dilim, dahil wala pong kuryente at ilaw sa lugar na yon - para sa mga di pa po nakakapunta), kasabay ng awitan, tugtugan, kulitan, sumbatan, tuksuhan at kung anu anu pang 'tan'. hehehe. Sa karamihan, hindi kumpleto ang punta nila sa Anawangin kung walang inuman ;) On our end, we weren't able to drink the first time, dahil sa pagod siguro naming lahat at lahat kami bagsak sa pagtulog, dahil na rin sa sarap ng simoy ng hangin at magagandang bituin sa kalangitan :). The second time, di rin kami nakainom, dahil mas nagfocus yata kami sa paniniguradong "ready" na kami the second time around. "Ready" dahil may mga dala na kaming tent (sila lang pala,hehe), at maraming-maraming pagkain! Di tulad nung una, na literal kaming nagmukhang iskwater dahil ano pagkain namin? Talong, hotdog, isda, itlog na maalat, delata, tsitsirya at cup noodles. Tarpouline lang ang ginawang bubong namin, kami'y natulog noon sa banig at kumot, at buhangin ang aming mga unan --- habang pinapalibutan kami ng mga nag-gagandahang mga tent, mga mamahaling lampara at kesasarap na pagkain! hahaha, nakakahiya talaga. So, nasagot ko ba yung tanong? Are you allowed to drink? Nasa sa inyo po. Ang importante'y di kayo mangbubulahaw ng mga katabi niyo at walang eskandalo or away na mangyayari. ^_^ Q: Things to bring? A: -Tent, -maraming tubig, -flashlight/emergency lamp/kandila, -mga gamit pangluto/ihaw/saing, -OFF lotion kung sensitibo sa lamok, -jacket/kumot kung lamigin, -sumbrero, -pang-swimming syempre (dahil sobrang pure ng buhangin at napakalinis ng dagat, ang sarap lumangoy Photo by Jha (magingat nga lang po sa 'sudden drop'. Huwag masyado pakalayo. Ang akala mong mababaw pa, ay maaaring maging biglang-lalim at di ka na maka-ahon. Seryoso po yan at di pananakot. You may read blogs about that 'sudden drop' thing in Anawangin), -Sunblock, -tissue paper, -gamit pangligo/banlaw, -ziplock, -Garbage plastic (para mapanatili pa rin ang kalinisan ng Anawangin, maging disiplinado sa basura), -pangsapin, -payong, at higit sa lahat - CAMERA (dahil hindi ako papayag na ma-miss ninyo ang ganito kagandang likha ng kalikasan) Photo by Jha Kung may nakalimutan po akong banggitin sa mga dapat dalhin at nalimutan sa aking mga sagot, pasensiya na. ^_^ If you still have further questions, sa prisinto na kayo magtanong. Hehe, kidding. Just let me know ^_^ Hope this helps!