Expect The Unexpected

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How would you feel when a person u barely knew from the past suddenly just popped up and said things which caught u offguard?

I've known this guy from like year of 2006. The first time we met was nothing extraordinary. He took me out for lunch in this prominent "eat-all-you-can" resto and ordered the special meal for me. He sat beside me and looked at me like I was the most beautiful girl around that place. Then he suddenly asked me if I have a boyfriend. Being the real single girl at that time, I said none, then he asked me if I can look at him in the eye and say it. I did..much to his surprise and he believed me.

Of all the guys I dated, he was the only one who had the guts to ask me right then and there, and even look me in the eye long enough to search for the truth.

His gentleman acts really knocked me off my feet and his smile melted me. Not until I realized where we're heading after lunch. He invited me to sleep with him. I was surprised, but one thing lead to another. We started going out for one too many times and do the deed like nothing will keep us apart.

I liked him at that time...but what pisses me off was his arrogance. Granted he is a 'dating guru' for this much known online site, i cant imagine how he made me fall for his charm. But his arrogance got on the way when i introduced him to one of my set of friends.

They didn't like him. They said I wont be happy with him. I agreed. Because by the time I introduced him to my friends, he just kept quiet and had this facial expression that he wanted to leave right away with me. Away from my friend's house. Since then, I didnt feel he's serious with me anymore.But still I chose to stay and leave the place with him. We checked-in again to one of this hotels and did it again. I dunno, but it was only then that i realized that I wasn't pleased with him at all. All he think of was himself and how he will be satisfied.

So i did what i have to do. I took him off my mind...dated other guys, been through with 2 more relationships...days, months and years gone by...then he suddenly sent me a message after 3yrs of no communication.

He said he realized his mistakes. He said he wanted me back. He said he ddnt know why after all these years he chose to keep my number on his phone. He said he wants another chance. He said he wants a relationship. With me.

He said mistakes have been done,and that he felt sorry and guilty for leaving me that way. He felt sorry for what he did to me and for hurting me. Of all the girls he dated, he wanted me.

Why now when I am still coping up with another crazy relationship (if i can consider what I have now a 'relationship')? Why now when I am hurting and starting to doubt my self-worth?

I just dont know what to say and if I should believe him now.
He's the last person I can think of who will do this to me.
He didn't even cross my mind for a very long time.

And yet here he is...
Saying words i unexpected for him to say...
and here he is...
saying that he's all charged up now and is more than willing to make ammends to what he did before.

Here he is...telling me that I dont need to fear and doubt because we're adults now, he learned from his mistakes, and I have his word now as a Man ready to redeem himself for me and be loved by me.

"God, is this you who's working on him? Should I let him into my life once again? Should I give him another chance for love?"

(,u.u)