He's just a few buildings away from me at work.
Yet he cant find time to see me.
I tried to surprise him on our first monthsary by bringing him a cake and a special gift, but he never showed up because their conference meeting has just started when he arrived. So i ended up going home.
He's just a few miles away from where i live.
In fact only a few hours drive will get him to me.
He's not even out of the country to find it hard in visiting me at home when im sick.
But what do i get at the end of the day?
Wishful thinking that he'll make an effort "personally" to be with me.
All I get is an excuse that he's "too busy" to spend time with me.
I understand his line of work, and that he's the boss, and that his developers will have nothing left to do if he wont finish a project assigned to him.
But up to when will I be waiting?
If i'll be the one to make the first move, i'm afraid he'll think of me as a demanding or persistent girlfriend. What if he dont want a girl like that? I dont want to lose him just because I made a move to see him.
Besides,i already tried. And everytime i make my move, of setting up a date or meeting with him, i always get rejected with the same excuse. So I decide not to.
Now, help me.
I want to show him that I do understand his lack of time for me for the time being.
But I also want to let him know how difficult it is for me to just wait. Two months of not seeing each other is too much. I cant bear with it.
If only he is living on the other side of the world, i would understand...but he's not.
If the only communication line we have is just the internet, i would understand...but there's the telephone - he won't even give me a call, even at his break time.
I know most of you already knows the answer to my question and would say, "Girl, he's not just into you".
But consider this:
there was never a day he failed to say he loves and misses me even if he's in a middle of a meeting.
Even if he only sends those words on my cellphone, i still appreciate it.
But it takes more than that right?
